I cannot understand why everything is falling apart. My family is in significant distress & despite my faith, everything just keeps getting worse. I became a doctor because I love helping people & now I feel helpless. My mother who is an angel has developed dementia with an unknown cause & keeps getting worse. She has fallen many times & cannot remember how to be safe. I got a baby monitor to try to make sure she doesn’t get hurt but am constantly worried. And she cannot understand she has to do the therapy to get better. I’ve quit working & moved in with her but often my attempts to keep her safe upset her & it hurts me so much. My sister is in constant pain & keeps getting diagnosed with many different things but very little is being done to help her quality of life. Also financially, we are drowning because mom’s retirement money is the only income we have. My sisters house has major water damage & our homeowners insurance will not cover it so we don’t know what to do. At both houses, appliances are breaking, sinks are falling, foundation is cracking, trees are dying. It’s like everything is falling apart.I am trying to help them both as much as I can but I just feel like I’m failing. My mom is an amazing woman who immigrated her as a child and wound up getting a PhD & being able to support our family in every way. But her life has always been hard. Before I had my ‘religious awakening’, her life used to be my argument against God. As a child, I would pray for my dad to stop abusing her & it never stopped. Regardless, she was the rock of our family & I know her decline is devastating her. But I still want her here with me. She deserves to get to enjoy some of her life. I don’t know why all this is happening. And I know I am still very blessed. But I really need help. Not for me, but for them. My sister is so depressed, she is suicidal. I’m scared for her because I am afraid she will do it & afraid she may not get to go to heaven, which I have seen. Please pray for my mom & sister to be in less pain & feel at peace. I just want them to feel happiness & have faith. And maybe new bad things could stop being thrown at us until I can try to fix the problems we currently have. I am praying more & trying keep my faith that things will not continue in this negative spiral. I keep trying to find a way to make money from home & it isn’t working. We just need a something to go well for us. My mom is back in the hospital after just being there 7 weeks ago. I believe there’s an underlying condition causing many of her problems but the doctors don’t want to check until she’s better. But she’s not getting better & I don’t understand how she can if she has this diagnosis if it’s not diagnosed & treated. I’m sorry this is so long. Obviously, I am not doing well or this would be clear & concise. If you don’t mind, please pray for my family. I need my sister & mom to not hurt so much. They don’t have the same faith I do. Thank you. Thank you God.
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