I need strength and peace in my heart and mind. My 4 yr old granddaughter was put in foster care. They placed her with me but said I broke contract by helping someone with 2 kids. Now we can’t see or talk to her. A friend said she’d take her so I wouldn’t stress so much. We prayed and all. They said she could go to my friends. My friend backed out twice. Even after we got a judge to approve it. She says she thought I was using her to see my gd on a daily. I had already told her I had no contact without a judges permission. So the devil won that battle. I know God has another plan. I have another friend who says she’ll take her but she’ll have to apply to be a foster parent. So idk. I ask that He has in His Will for her to come home or it works out with my other friend but at least let us have some kind of visits. Her mom does virtual visits now. I pray everything goes well tomorrow at court for her mom. I’ve been having lots of health issues. I’ve done some research and I have every symptom of chronic fatigue. I’m gonna talk to my Dr. I stay in bed pretty much all day and night. I have started walking and I’ll be doing the things they said to do to get rid of chronic fatigue. I have 8 things that I’ll be doing. My BP and pulse have been really high due to stress and anxiety over my he and my health plus all the pain in my neck, shoulder blades and shoulders. It’s been rough. I only eat once a day. I’m overweight because of sodas. I’ve started drinking water everyday. My blood work is really bad. Triglycerides and. Cholesterol are really high and I take medicine for my cholesterol so idk why it’s still high. I also have problems that’s personal. My mom says I need to call my Gynecologist quickly after telling her what was going on. So all in all I’m suffering from grief and pain and anxiety and stress because of my granddaughter and my health. I don’t wanna die. My face and scalp have become so dry my skin is flaking off of my face and I have rough dry splotches on my face and ears and eyes. My scalp is so dry I have severe dandruff where I have lumps of dandruff on my scalp. I’m can’t roll over in bed at all. I sleep on my back in one position. I can’t do a lot of things and I’m scared I’m gonna become bedridden if not worse. Like death. I have lots of grandkids, 3 biological kids and 3 non biological kids, my husband, my parents and most of all I’m just learning about Jesus Christ our Lord. I’ve been studying, reading and listening for about 4 months now. I started and in like 2 months or so the devil came after me. Had my granddaughter taken from me and put in foster care. Then God granted for my Christian friend to take her but the devil slipped in again and made her back out. Not just once but twice. I was devastated. Lost a friend and an adopted daughter who’s keeping her kids from me because she’s mad with me because she thinks I’m mad that my friend backed out. I wasn’t mad. I’m hurt. My daughter treated me really hateful over it. She called my friends daughter and put herself in the middle but made me look like I was in the wrong. I didn’t do anything. I didn’t ask anybody to do anything. My friend offered. She backed out. She called again. The judge said ok. She came to my house to fill out paperwork for daycare and she grabbed my hand and prayed for my gf to go to her. God granted it. She backed out again. Says I wSs using her. How is that my fault? I never got mad just hurt. I’m still hurt. I’m gonna stop now. Idk what got over me but it just poured out. Guess I needed to get it off my chest. Please accept my apology for the lengthy message. I do need some serious praying for me and my family especially my granddaughter. Thank you so much for reading this terribly long prayer request/grief.
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