i need his direction in my life . I have retired, as a school teacher for special needs individuals (high school) i have a degree in Special/Physical Education and a Master Degree in Adult and Occupational as well as a few hours in Leadership education before decided as I was getting older I (70 years of age) would never get a loan paid off before I’d retired i stopped the program.
Honestly, i have always struggle academically and I’m not the best writer. I was not allowed to progress academically back in elementary from the 3rd to the fourth grade. However, I had achieved academic successes by hard work and the Lord has always provided someone to see my through, He did see my fears and lack of academic confidence through the degrees i have mentioned.
I’m now faced with the reality of being considered becoming the Educational Director. Now my fears (lack of confidence) of have proficient written communication are taunting me with “Red Flags” and doubt. I also love the atmosphere of sales and want to pursue as o do have my life insurance licenses and in the progression of taking a health licenses soon.
i have always wanted to be a sale achiever when i was growing up as i was the eldest child of 10 siblings and my mother for 10 years added nieces, nephews and an uncle thus an extended family of 16 in one home.
When I was in college I changed my degree from Physical Education (after the colege wresting team was discontinued) to Special Education as mother adopted a special need child in to the family (Victor) he lived until his early fifties. He was my inspiration for teaching special need individuals and degree change. I ended my teaching career ( 41 years) in 2019 teaching in maximin security prison and pubic education.
I currently share teaching Adult Sunday school and an assistant Educational Director for Sunday/. I do love to teach however, I’m struggling with academic fears and feeling inadequate.
Though this has has been a life struggle, God has obviously seen me through them but i do internally struggle with feeling of inadequate and indecision concerning his will for the remainder of my life. The ended of earthly life span is shorter than my previous years.
I just want to be pleasing to him (pleasing others is another thing that has been challenging)
be in his will and no come short in his purpose for my life now. I cant get back what has past .
Sincerely,.
Herbert
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