I feel title ought be Miracle release from depression…..I dreamt other week that a Good man was telling me I had either a Demon or demonS. And that I wasn’t to let them rule over me…then came similar reading etc etc….,I have kept Hoping I was getting There,,,these last Hard6 years I have Not been I hospital At All….most of my life since teenage. Then from my 3rd child,,I have been in and out with Suicide attempts..Recently the dreams of attempting suicide again have crept back along with increasing weariness of life..I had Hoped The Lords promise ,,of the years the locusts have eaten shall be repaid double,,might happen…but at an age of just 60…there seems little hope,, loneliness can be hard,,though I have my grown up and away children etc…I have been Praying for the REALITY of The Lord,,not just head work…still though I am and prefer to be,,an Active person,,,I feel there is perhaps noone who would Really want pray for me at my age….my childhood was one of middle-class hidden abuse of Every kind,,up to 16,,,when I finally cried tears from my brother’s Attentions,,,then at 17 was my first overdose…..I thought all that had happened to me was Normal….so I suffer still with PTSD and dissociative disorder,thouh that’s Not as bad now,,,,, emotional eating is a problem,,though I not way overweight…..it’s a problem,,,so you see after SO Long,,,IS there still a Life worth Living,,for me?????? Prob Longest request you’ve had….Thank you if God Listens to you for me!! I am Trying to Stop striving and being ,,driven in life…mind I am pretty much grinding to a halt…gradually…sigh Thank you.
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