I’ve been struggling with loneliness, hopelessness, and suicidal thoughts for some time now. It often seems like the best escape is just to kill myself. It’s very scary to think about actually doing it though. It would take me into an unknown in death. Life can be really hard sometimes! My struggles include: finding and keeping a job I like, having a woman, loneliness, staying in shape, handling everything life throws at me, and not feeling like anyone really cares if I live or die. That’s all I can think of right now, but my mind can come up with thousands more. I do believe in God, but it’s hard sometimes to believe in a God who punishes His creation forever for not getting it right in this life that they never asked for. One thing I’m very good at is money management, wealth building, and investing. I would enjoy a job in which I can help others to build monetary wealth. I also have a sharp theological mind. I’m good at picking out heresy and false doctrine. I’m sure God could use me for something amazing. The bottom line is it’s really difficult to go through life alone. We aren’t meant to live that way.
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