I’ve been having a hard time with life. And I know hat I have been blessed in so many ways, but I can’t seem to find happiness. Long story short two years ago I had the best miracle that god gave me and that was my daughter. I was unable to bare children, but November 02.2018 God gave me another chance at life. I wanated to end it all the day before I lost my job got into trouble etc. that night I had bad pain in my abdominal area, thikkjgn it was pancreatitis again I went to the hospital to find out I was pregnant. In two weeks I was about to have a hysterectomy due not being able to have kids from when I was sexually assaulted.
Well. I was 26 weeks early and she wanted to come out but my blood pressure went 250/ 200 and that was it she Abrupted from me and was without oxygen for 15 minutes and I passed away as well. During the second blood transfusions I started coming back and she was Incubated and came back to life. She was 2lbs and perfect. Two years later nothing is wrong no brain damage she is actually milestone wise way ahead.
So, yes I heard god tell me “it’s not your time”. And I was a peace when I passed. Now don’t get me wrong am happy but not happy and mental health is starting to spiral out of control. Am in therapy and group. But am. Not happy. I’ve had many health issues due to my c-section and still having issues. I don’t know what feeling good is anymore because everyday I don’t feel well.
Am asking, for prayers please to heal my body,my mind and soul and bring joy and happiness upon my life for me and my daughter Hope. She chose me God chose me to be that momma, but I feel stuck and alone. I need guidance and blessing from Jesus. Please hear my cry lord.
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