I’m trying to give up my desire for marriage to God but it’s still pulling on me hard and I’m seriously about to snap. I saw a hooker when she was at the store earlier and I had 50 USD on me. I came really close to asking her for sex. I’m sick and tired of waiting. I’m sick and tired of being horny all the time. It’s like some kind aof cruel joke. What the heck am I supposed to do? I can’t wait much longer. I can’t even just have casual female friends. It’s like I’ve been cursed to never have any women friends. The one friend I did have left me. Left me wondering if I said or did something wrong. I’m sick of this really sick of this. I’m about ready to go buck wild and find a mate, married or not. I don’t care anymore. I’m sick of it. Sick of waiting and I don’t want to wait anymore please pray that God would help me with this because this surrender thing is not working. Seriously I’m about to go nuts. I need someone or something to get me back down to earth.
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