I’m neck deep in my Alcohol addiction, thinking it is medicine rather than poison. I can’t serve two masters. I’m frightened out of my mind. I lost my 92 year old father to suicide September 2020 and my mom’s pretty sick with a lot of ailments. I live in fear and panic every moment and am full of shame. I feel as if I might die because I’m 61 and destroying my body. I have to stay alive to take care care of mom and my mentally ill brother. Don’t know what I’m asking for except for prayer. Thank you whoever you are 🙏🏻❤️