Dear Lord, help me to change my life and give it over to you completely. I quit opioids and my family is so proud, but I don’t hear from them much. They had accused me of being on meth. I wasn’t. Truly I was not. But since I was accused, I started using it. I want to be completely free of that and anything else holding me back. You see, I already know, all I have to do is completely give my life over to you. And I know it will get hard for a bit, and then it will get so much better. I’m behind on bills, so much in debt. I take anitdepressants, but I’ve had a lot of childhood trauma that causes negativity. Why can’t I just do it? Give my life to you? What am I so afraid of? Help me please to let go and trust you with my life. I fear I’ve not much time left in your world. And want to know, before I go, what it could be like to be happy, truly happy! I don’t think I’ve ever felt true happiness. Only with my kids. When they left and had families of their own, I’ve been lost since. I don’t date, I don’t think I’m that lonely, but I wish I had a companion. Respectful, man I can trust who doesn’t just want sexual relations. I’ve never been In Love with a man before. Not ever! Will I ever find someone whom could love me, the way I am? Please bring me into the light, change me completely. I feel like I just want to go home, but don’t understand what that means. I think, though, it’s because I know you’re my home. Deep down, I know it, why am I holding back? Please pray for me to become a part of your world and trust in you to make the right choices for me. You know I can’t make the right ones for myself, that obvious. In Jesus’ name, I pray, Amen.