I’m a drunk please remove my obsession to drink alcohol. Since as long as I can remember I’ve managed to push people away. I isolate and ruminate punishing and blaming myself. I’d rather sit on the couch watch movies and cartoons rather than be with people. Eventually I’ll say or do something they won’t bother with me. They stopped asking me to do things because I would come up with excuses why I couldn’t do anything. The only thing I do is go to work go food shopping then can’t wait to get home. I don’t want to be like this anymore. Since my marriage turned sour basically since day one but only recently got divorced. Change me from the inside out lord. I should get out more go to meetings volunteer. Please change me from the inside out