My mom is bedridden, in hospice at her home. My sisters and I care for her, which is draining & stressful. Her social security checks/pension are paying for all the household expenses while my sister lives there, taking advantage of free room & board, now drives her car, not to mention she manipulated my mom to will the house to her, since she’s getting divorced. My youngest sister manages Mom’s money, which I suspect is mismanaged, leaving us to pay for a caretaker once or twice a week. I resent paying my part since I know my dad left mom well provided for to pay for her care, I seem to have no voice in any financial matters, I feel powerless. As if that isn’t enough, I have a 40 yr old son living at home with me, mentally disabled, though he works on occasion and has been somewhat functional and independent. He has had several cars which he wrecked, now he’s riding the bus since I’m so frustrated with his carelessness and hesitate to keep helping him. I suspect, rather I know, he occasionally does drugs. He steals from me periodically, just had another episode today where he stole my bank card, luckily Chase shut it down. I manage his social security checks because he’s so irresponsible. I’m exhausted, stressed and at wits end. I feel clouds of depression coming over me, I struggle & try to push through, as I have for many years. I need guidance and relief from all the chaos. Sometimes I take time off from work just to get some balance and relaxing time off. I’m not getting younger and I’m worn out. I need relief. I’m single, running the household, which is overwhelming, constantly need repairs. I feel invisible sometimes, like nobody knows or cares what I endure
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