Good day. I come to you out of desperation. I have prayed ,done fasting, had relgious trustworthy friens pray with me ,yet no light in sight.My husband stared to have an affair 5 years ago.It went from one to two affairs at the same time.He was unemployed for a good number of years ,so I have been working since before we were together. He is now 60 I am 54.
One of his girls was on drugs,stole from me,from underwear to money to moblie phones to clothes and everytime I spoke to him about it he would get aggressive with me.There were times that he threatened to kill me. Yes it is easy to say” call the police ,or get abprotection order” the problem is we live very far from a police station and the sometimes even only comes the next day when they are called out..
I realised that it’s best to not say anything ,for the sake of peace, if I noticed when I come back from work,that they were having “good fun” at my house…He has given me the mist hurtful and disgusting words and even his attitude towards me was disgusting.
I learned to let ho and let God and not said a word whenever I saw anything.I have learned to make peace that we cannot and will not be together again, and my feelings towards him have changed anyway over the 5 years that this has been going on for….So many things have happened in between .I eventually after 3 years of the initial start of all this,went to go file for divorce.Nothing came off it, because we could not agree to a divorce settlement regarding the house which belong to both of us.Now he does not wanna move out ,neither do I because I seriously have no where to go to,and living in South Africa,with a very little salary, I would never be able to find a place to stay.He told me right out to”get the fuck out of the house”(excuse the cursing, I just wanted to quote his own words).
I moved to a different lawyer who did even less than the first one did.Eventually I again surredered to the Lord..and ask to take the matter in His hands.My health is deteriorating, my mental status is deteriorating, even though I am still standing by His Great Grace.
My biggest problem is not his affairs anymore but the fact that I go to work every single day of my life,except for Sundays,he is still unemployed, and he still brings his woman into my house the minute I leave for work,and this isn’t hear say,he told me so himself,besides the fact that yhe neighbors yell me. I came home early from work due to me not feeling well and would come find them in my house,and yet are not allowed to say anything..I then just go to my bedroom,as we are living in seperate bedrooms now,and keep quiet..He went so far as to let the one grow plants in my yard to sell for herself for an income,because neither of the two girls are emoloyed either.Again ,my problem is not the affairs anymore,I am iver him,I dont love him no more,my problem is him bringing him to my house while I’m at work.I don’t even know how to speak to God about it anymore.It’s been going on for 5 years and when told him I’m fine with us tow mot being together anymore,all I am asking him for is to not let them into the house,he’s answer is always” he will not change it”
They even have the audacity to cone to my house when I am off from work and perhaps go to the shops quickly or when I go to church on a Sunday.
I am in seriuos and desperate need of the Lord’ intervention. Thus I ask you to please please just pray for my situation,not to be together with him,because I really and honestly can and never want to be again,all love is gone,but I ask the Lord to make an end to these sexual activities to carry in in my house,In the Name of Jesus.
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