I’m in a midlife crisis that’s been ongoing for years. Since adulthood, despite trying different jobs and vocations I have been struggling with self-doubt about my purpose in life. Because of my choices my debt is a tremendous burden to me because I can’t get more education or own a home. To cap it all off, I’m unmarried though I’ve been trying to patiently wait and in the mean time have physical desires that I fulfill by waiting pornography.