Hi ever since childhood I never appreciated my life I always had the thought on my mind to kill myself, because I don’t like the people I was living among, my family. I was never deprived of any basic amenities, yet I felt that I was never being valued or respected, they always had control over me, I’m 26 today and still I think Iam. A lot has happened to me because I never appreciated life or God. When I was a kid I was into Jesus but as we grew up due to wrong preachers we drifted apart. And now I know I’m suffering. It has been 5 years since I graduated and I’m still unemployed, I was a good student but now I face difficulty, nothing intrigues me. My ego wants to start with big job but I lack the talent and feel lazy to work for it. I’m also addicted to porn and masturbation because that gives me temporary pleasure of love and satisfaction, love that I have been cheated on many times. Last guy I was with got engaged, a month after we brokeup and later I realised he had been with that girl the same time we were together. Iam lost, no hope,just see darkness everywhere. Pray for me, I want love, I want work, money, I wanna donate, I want to be happy. There’s some barrier in my life I want it to be lifted off and be busy and fruit of earth. God I’m ready shower your kindness on me and forgive me for my sins.
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