Spiritual Healing and Growth

by EDDIE ()

Hello I’m Eddie Stelly, on April 9, 2020 I met a wonderful woman at my place of employment by the name of Pertrenia Marie Guidry. On that day I asked her for her phone number because I wanted to get to know her better, but before I could finish what I wanted to say she had already written it down for me. I was shocked because she turned down so many other guys at work, she also told a mutual coworker & friend that she loved the way I approached her. On Easter Sunday I called her for the 1st time only to discover that she was in tears because she just lost part of her home in a fire and currently lives with her youngest of three daughters.
I did all I could to comfort and help her out and so far I’ve known her for roughly a year. Through getting to know her I’ve noticed a pattern, early on she told me she had been in some abusive relationships in her past. The men in her past never appreciated her and she ended up being cheated on and abandon by these men. The problem is she has fallen for me and this frightens her, as much as she tries to hide her feelings they slip out on occasion. Deep down she cares and wants a relationship with me, but she over thinks a lot and fears I may one day hurt her too.
This couldn’t be farther from the truth, I Eddie love and care for Pertrenia more than she knows and I only want the best for her. I have no interest in abusing her, I only want to love her and be loved by her. It’s easy to see she wasn’t appreciated because every time I do something for her out of affection she tells me no one has ever done anything for her before and it’s nice to be thought about. Sometimes she says she doesn’t feel worthy or deserving of me, but she has no idea how worthy and deserving she is, that’s just low self-esteem talking. I feel God didn’t allow us to meet for nothing we met for good reason.
I don’t think it’s fair that a few unworthy men got to be loved by Trenia only to abuse, cheat and abandon her. She deserves a chance to experience and exchange real love without fear. The last incident we had was on Valentines’ Day, I did something for her to make her feel special and appreciated. She text me the day after out of fear with the intent on pushing me away, after responding and calming her down she apologized and said that she didn’t want to lose me and she didn’t want me to hate her because of how she is.
At that moment I realized that this was a spiritual problem that needed healing, Pertrenia has a fear of getting her heart broken. She has a fear of commitment, and a fear of her freedom being taken away from her. She has a fear of abandonment and rejection, a fear of abuse, cheating and vulnerability. She hasn’t healed form her past yet, and I’m asking anyone to pray for Trenia so she can one day be healed and set free from her painful past, doubts and fears. She needs our help to grow and spiritually mature so she can finally experience real love comfortably in a healthy equal give and take manner.
I’ll be 50yrs old on April 9, 2021 and she will be 49yrs old on May 16, 2021, this has gone on long enough and this change in her life is much needed and long overdue. I’m already praying for her, but I can’t fight this battle alone, any prayers on Pertrenias behalf is greatly appreciated.

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