God lovingly gifted me with one child who I raised alone. I did all I could to give her a happy life, and she had one until she turned me away. At age 13, she stopped being the beautiful, happy and loving daughter she was. She put up the tallest wall you can imagine. I think it stemmed from her best friend, her grandpa, dying. She hasn’t been the same since. Forward to today. She is 31 with a successful business and a beautiful home, and a beautiful 13 year old son. I love them both so much; they are my life. They are my family. My daughter hasn’t talked to me for over a year. She won’t tell me why because she’s not talking to me. Her son is at that age where hanging out with Grandma doesn’t sound fun anymore. I can’t express the hurt I have been suffering. My heart aches for her. I cry myself to sleep some nights. She doesn’t know my pain. I don’t know if I should fight for her or close that chapter of my life. Sometimes I’m angry with God for giving me such a beautiful gift, and he only gave me one child. Why did my life have to go this way? What did I do wrong? I’m mad at God because of the pain I have to endure every day, that he blessed me with a child, then allowed her to leave me. I pray to the Lord every day and ask him to soften her heart and let me in. I feel abandoned by my own daughter, and sometimes by God, even though he promises to never forsake me. Please pray for divine wisdom to be granted me so I know what to do. Do I hang on, or let go? My heart aches either way.
Thank you for reading this and for your powerful prayers. All will be well; it’s the getting there that causes my grief. I miss her so much.
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