You know what is in my heart, you know what I want, but, if that is not your will, then please, put me on the right path

Dear St. Jude;

First of all, I would like to ask for forgiveness for all of my sins and indiscretions. I have not been living the life that is true to the Lord and for that I am eternally sorry. I surrender my life to you. I want to live a life that will make you proud. You know what is in my heart, you know what I want, but, if that is not your will, then please, put me on the right path. Give me strength, but, please show me mercy. I am sorry. Protect my children from my indiscretions and please just help me.