I know it has been a while, but I’m in need of prayer: my cat Betsy has a current issue with her left foot causing her to limp and still has a tumor/lump under one of her nipples and I wish for it to be healed. I confess that I wasn’t sympathetic nor had compassion nor empathy when my husbands mother’s dog had the same thing and eventually died from the same issue. I was bitter! And, I am sorry! I feel as if I am being punished for my lack of caring for my husbands mother’s dog, as if it is my fault that my cat now appears to have the same issue due to my sin.
I also have continually tried everything to get my weight off (15 lbs)… various diets, liquid diets and I am stuck. I am actually having digestion issues and hope my visit to the doctor on the 19th is normal and just too much plant protein in my diet. Lord speak to me! I am ashamed to go back to church along with seeing my inlaws because of my weight gain and the fear of judgment instead of loving me where I am at. I began taking a previous medication I at one point no-longer used due to its appetite suppressant side effect — I know short-cuts do not bring long-time success. Church, I had a religious spirit at a point of time and also am ashamed of my behavior — but I also understand I had to go through it to know it and the difference of a religious spirit vs one of Jesus. Still makes me feel bad.. shame.
When I do good things, fear comes up that something bad is going to happen to me and it torments me because I am doing good. I need deliverance because I love doing good, I love to give.
I still struggle with loving people where they are at myself. For instance, my mom is morbidly obese with health issues and she complains of these issues and I try to advise her when I know I can not save her. She tells me I am lecturing her and I have to remember I am not her Jesus and only He can save her. It appears the Lord is telling me to only advise and help people when they come to me asking for help, anything else I need to keep my mouth closed. I wish my mother would be delivered from her health issues including emotional eating and sugar addiction.
I wish mine and my Dads relationship was closer. It is still strained after reconciliation.
I once had a severe problem with pronography that became perverse in different areas. I was delivered from this addiction hallelujah, however, I will get a trigger here and there when I see a familiar image/memory from the old ways I once had. I hate the memories that pop up that are connected to certain things that cross my path and need deliverence in this area.
Lastly, I need discernment in 3 different areas of perceived jobs the Lord wants me to do. These 3 jobs are in my heart but I know the heart can be deceiving. All 3 jobs are related to sharing the gospel or planting seeds of the gospel but I am like paralyzed to move forward. When I begin to do research I can’t finish. I am being held back and the fire has been put out in my soul even though I am excited about these tasks I believe the Lord has given me to do. However, I don’t know what to do with what is going on in my soul.
My apologies for the prayer request being so long, it has been awhile since I have sought prayer help for my struggles where I am not getting a breakthrough. On another note, my marriage is doing very very well and… my husbands heart has began to shift toward the desire of having children. The fear of his parents divorce he had to go through as a teenager and then our separation 3 years ago affirming the possibility of the fear coming to fruition is the culprit for his hesitation to multiply. Hallelujah the Lord Jesus has given me strength to continue waiting each year I grow older (36.5) — I’ve had my weak moments, but there is power and strength in Jesus name! One more request… my husband be given the wisdom for staying in our home or moving, along with giving him more vision and dreams so I can come along side and help more.
May God bless you abundantly always! I know prayer works and I thank God and you with all my heart and soul for all of your help.
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