Today I am asking God to forgive me and to forget. I fell inlove with a man who was to scared to love me back . I did everything to get him to feel the same way back was so convinced that we were suppose to be together. I ended up doing things that went against my morals , told lies just to make him feel sorry for me . Got sick was in Hospital but still believed in our relationship and that Sunday I had given my self to the Lord but nothing changed after that day . So one day I got so angry were I just hit him. even lied about being pregnant .That was the last day we ever spoke . I have guilt I am ashamed . I am asking God to help me in ways , my dark ways , Just got so tired of people leaving me. funny thing I miss him and I love him still.