When you told me to breakup with my boyfriend because you wanted our focus to be on you, I did it. When you told me I need to forget about him for awhile, I did it. When you told me to focus on finding my identity and worth in you, I found it. But it has been almost a year and if I’m being honest, you’re the last person I want to be involved with and I am frustrated with you. My ex boyfriend has found such great relationship with you and wants to marry me, and I feel lost and incredibly far from you. There is a wedge between me and you and a massive burden in my heart that I can’t shake. You want to teach me to surrender and to let go of the wheel but that is so hard for me. You want to teach me that you’re all I need and you satisfy me in ways that no man ever could. Right now things seem hopeless because no matter how much I pray or try to seek you, something just feels like it’s inhibiting me from doing so freely. Please help me have renewed faith and hope. I feel weak and exhausted and frustrated without you.
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