I have been a addict for as long as I can remember I got clean 3 years ago, but this year I have unfortunately slipped back into relapse a couple times. I am a Christian woman who has been raised in a God fearing Christian home. I have went through alot of hardships due to poor choices I’ve made in my life. I just need to understand and my purpose and why I keep going back and forth to my old ways when all I truly desire is to be closer to my heavenly father and to carry out the purpose he has for me which I don’t know what that is I feel very lost, confused, stuck even.. please God help me…