I am asking forgiveness in all my wrong doings in my personal life. I have let the devil in with lies and ugliness towards the love of my life. I let too many things get to me and took them out on him. I was not being a very good person or acting how I should have.
He and I are minimal speaking terms now and I have seen the error of my ways but it seems too late. I don’t want to lose him or have him out of my life completely. He fills my heart with so much joy and happiness in ways no other has. I want the best for him life has to offer. I want to become a better person.
Not because of this situation, but because I know I can be and want to be. I always mean well but let too many things bother me. I want to learn patience and how to control what I say and think before I speak. Please lift me up and make me the best person I can be as I am willing to learn what I dont know or should know and I want to serve you the way I always should have.
I love my ex and want him to stick around and eventually open back up to me to get this right once and for all. I pray doesnt meet anyone else in the mean time during my new journey. Thanks to everyone reading his who can relate and will pray for me as well. In Gods name I pray. Amen.