Dear saint Jude please help. I am so helpless and alone in the world so much. I carry around a sadness that I can’t escape. Please help. I don’t know what to do anymore. I’ve wished the same wish every day for years. I know other people suffer more than I and I have a lot if blessings but for me this feel never goes away.
I walk around like a shell. Never at peace unless he is here. I don’t know what to do anymore. For me it is the only way. I get so sad that everything suffers. I want to be like other people. Have hopes and dreams. Be loved. Have companionship and love. I want him here with us. I want us to learn to live together. Appreciate and love each other.
Make us better. Believe that I deserve it. Don’t know what else to say. I’m so sad. It’s so hard to cope. I just want to really live. Be happy all the time and know what that feels like. Please help soon. Please. I will tell everyone and be so grateful. So grateful. I ask for myself.
I ask for Merven. I ask for Orlando. I know no other way. Please bring happiness to me. Merven and let me become Orlando’s happiness.