Help others to see that I am excluded from anything that means anything amongst those favored in my family and it hurts to find out after the fact that my own mother was in support of this exclusive talk and it makes me feel like an outsider always. I trust in help. My own person has done everything I can to try to fit in with them and do for them but it never seems to be enough…..it is my intent to go my own way and I hope I can find the strength to follow my own way and have everyone leave me alone unless they really mean to include me…which isn’t happening. I pray that my own life of knots returns to some normalcy and I can move on. No job, no kids, no family interest at all …I have nothing. My love from The Lord is all I have.