I am getting old and have found myself at the bottom of my life. As a child I was told I would never amount to anything by my parents. I am now living what she foretold. It is a daily walk in darkness that I have battled most of my life and seems like it has come to a final fruition.
I pray for the courage to end this waisted life. My time is coming to a close. My children have been taken from me through divorce. I was a good father and faithful husband and tried to live a holy life. After a disability my career ended, my marriage and my home are gone.
After many years of plenty and what I thought was a family for life, it’s all over. Now I struggle to just stay alive. I am so displaced. My identity is obscured by inner darkness, and I have so little motivation to go on.
Dear Lord have mercy on this sinner. I don’t know what to pray for any more. Too many wrong choices. Have Mercy Jesus.