Please pray that I can find hope that god loves me. I ask this because these past few months have been very difficult for me. My precious dog of 13 years was struck by a car in front of my house in September. I took her to the Emergency Vet but they could not save her.
I am still so grief stricken over the loss of my beloved pet and I carry much guilt as well. I also blame the lady who hit her because I believe she was texting while driving. All of this blame and guilt has made a bitter and angry person which is very uncharacteristic of myself. I struggle daily just to live and now I have lost my job because I was caught drinking while working.
I am afraid of doing something like taking my own life and I worry that if I do, God will not let me enter into his kingdom. My family doesn’t want to have anything to do with me and my ex-husband who once said we would always remain friends, doesn’t want to have anything to do with me either. I am so scared and so lonely I could just die literately.
Please, please pray for me ask God to help me.