I just retired and have now been recently diagnosed with diabetes. This has totally destroyed me emotionally where I am in the deepest darkest depression of my life. I know it sounds selfish, but I’m one who simply cannot psychologically cope with a chronic disease condition such as this. It has completely overtaken my mind and occupies my every waking moment.
I have become a totally non-functioning person, an empty shell, no longer a father or husband. I’ve lost interest in everything. I cannot control this. It has taken over every aspect of my life such that the former me no longer exists.
Due to my nature, I see the only possible rescue out of this for me is a physical healing from God. I pray my heart out daily. Please pray that God shows me mercy and pulls me out of this. The only other option that I see is death.
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I am praying for you. My dad recently retired, too, and he is really struggling. He has COPD, issues with his brain from a benign tumor surgery… I think he would say that the worst of all is the retirement part. He has a little bit of work, maybe a couple of hours a week, but he’s used to going non-stop. He recently received Christ and for the first time I saw a kind of despondency in him. I just wanted to let you know that others are in the same boat with you and Jesus hasn’t forgotten you. Trust in him, and let him finish the work he’s begun in you. He still has a plan for your life, he still knows every hair on your head and he will never leave you or forsake you. Pour out your heart to him. He longs for you to fully turn to him, God bless you and take good care of yourself.
(PS- My brother has learned to control his diabetes through diet. He eats a very low-sugar, no wheat – he does eat other grains like oats and oat bran, corn meal, brown rice- but generally, it’s a low-carb diet with very little junk food. Investigate it- you’ll be encouraged to see that many people have luck with dietary changes. Oh– and he feels really, really healthy again eating this way.)
Diabetes does define you as a person. My grandson is 26 and has struggled with it for ten years. He felt diminished as a young man wanting a family and now, as a result of our family’s prayers, has found a young lady who sees him as a “whole” person. I am a 75 year old widow still working and with many blessings but I suffer with depression which is so hard to live with. It appeared after I was alone. Some days better than others, but I feel better keeping busy. Listen to a good Christian radio station and find meaningful prayers. The devotional Jesus Calling is a great little book. Also Psalm 34. From an old hymn….”I came to Jesus as I was. Weary and worn and sad. I found in Him a resting place and He has made me glad “. Hang on to Jesus. He will direct you to a new beginning. Praying for you.