I just retired and have now been recently diagnosed with diabetes. This has totally destroyed me emotionally where I am in the deepest darkest depression of my life. I know it sounds selfish, but I’m one who simply cannot psychologically cope with a chronic disease condition such as this. It has completely overtaken my mind and occupies my every waking moment.
I have become a totally non-functioning person, an empty shell, no longer a father or husband. I’ve lost interest in everything. I cannot control this. It has taken over every aspect of my life such that the former me no longer exists.
Due to my nature, I see the only possible rescue out of this for me is a physical healing from God. I pray my heart out daily. Please pray that God shows me mercy and pulls me out of this. The only other option that I see is death.