Prayer for forgiveness peace and guidance

I need agreement in prayer for forgiveness from God. About 7 years ago I was approached in the parking lot by a psychic. Ever since then whenever I have relationship anxieties I call one. I know this is wrong and have been doing good at not calling but every now and then I fall short.

I have developed an anxiety disorder and depression due to my childhood and past relationships and need deliverance from this all. I feel as though God as turned his back on me and I can never be forgiven. I struggle to pray daily and keep faith in God as my life is a mess right now. I am currently in a relationship and need guidance on whether or not God meant for us to be together. I am in a bad place in my life right now and need a prayer warrior to pray for me and my strength in the Lord.