Dear Lord, I am ashamed of my life and look back with no pride even though I have never mismanaged money in anyway. Father Lord, there have never been a day that I have had things easy or sleep in peace. I have always worked from a professional job to odd jobs just to make sure there is food on the table for my family, but Lord I am beginning to loose the will to carry on.
I have debts above my ceiling to the tune of over 20,000 and cannot stop thinking of suicide. I have never been a coward Lord, nor run away from my problems but heavenly father, this time I am pushed to the limit. Everything I have touched this year has faded or failed woefully. You are my very last hope Jesus and please don’t turn your back on me because I have no where else to go. Constant tears have taken the place of the last few smiles I used usher to friends and family. Anger has taken the place of the unconditional love my kids used to have around me.
Father God, I know I have sinned before man and yourself, but Lord I pray that you forgive me and give me the strength to carry on. I still believe in miracles and will always trust in you. One of these days I am going to wake up with a smile on my face. I know this will happen soonest and is the only thing that is keeping me one step ahead of the bailiffs. HOPE.
THANK YOU LORD.