I am feeling lost beyond words… I don’t know how to feel or think and my thoughts and heart feel jumbled beyond words. As you know, I am in a relationship with my best friend, who makes me feel whole. We have been through a lot this past year and a half, making it hard to be with him sometimes.
Although I can learn to forgive him, it is hard to forget the way that he has made me feel at times in the past. At times I feel insecure and unstable in our relationships, although I know he is who I want to spend the rest of my life with, in Your name. Help me to forgive and accept like you do, my God. I love you more than anything or anybody and I want to set the same example you did.
Since he moved out, he has been different, God. I had never felt to loved and happy, God. He has decided to drop out of school and think unclearly. I pray that you shoe your face to him, God, and help guide him. For I feel that he, too, is lost. Although we love each other, we are both still molding. Help us get through any obstacle that comes our way, only making us fall more in love and stronger as a couple, my dear God.
I just want what is best for him and what is best for both of us. Let him know you, God, so that he can love you as much as I do, and so that he can love me next after you. I feel him drifting away and now I realize how you must have felt with me at times. Forgive me for forgetting.
Forgive me for not communicating all the time. I know that you wouldn’t put this much love in my heart for him if it wasn’t meant to be. I believe in you. I know you are there. I know you can hear me. I know you will answer my prayer. Help us praise you together. Help us see the best things in each other and lift each other up instead of down. I love you. I love you so much.
I know you love me too. I know you will help me through this. I know you will help him through his difficulties and make our love and feelings mutual. I know we will always get through our obstacles if we can make it through this one. When I am in Heaven, I want him and you there with me, my God. Thank you for hearing my prayer. You are always there.