Prayer for cathing back up in life

Dear St. Jude, I have made some decisions in my life that left me feeling empty. I was never really able to get over the loss of my brother at a young age. 43 years later, I still feel everyone has moved on but me. I never got to say goodbye and was not taken to his funeral because they thought it would traumatize me further.

I passed one several life events and now find myself in a hole, financially, divorced and no children. Many of those events were because I felt guilty of being able to do something my brother could not do anymore. I just want be forgiven, smile and be financially sound again. I feel so far behind, it is hard to wake up and be motivated.

I ask for a way or direction for me to help achieve again…. Thank you. I need the light back in my life again.