i know God Hears all crys and pleas for help and i know not all prayers can be answered, i have struggled through out my life, i struggeld in schoold and struggled in the army and still struggle to this day.
I blame my self because i know i can be a better worker, father and husband. i have gone to many churches seeking help and to only be turned away. i feel that i am looked at as the devil and always being treated like someone that cant be helped.
i just would love to have a stable career and a stable life. i have never had a stable life, home or anything. the VA has offerd other military members homes jobs but when i ask for help i am turned away.
please pray for my families guidence through life, as i contemplate ending mine.