Pray for my marriage

I am praying for a miracle. My wife of 16 plus years left and said no way would she ever be married to me again. After 17 years of me emotionally abusing her, abandoning her, my alcohol abuse, my pornography abuse, and really just acting like i did not want her. I have been crying out to God that he would make me a new man. I love my wife dearly and now understand what I had. I have ask God to forgive me for what I did to her. Please pray that God changes my heart and our marriage is restored.