These past few days have been very rough for me. I’ve been praying for a person who would be the one that is right for me. You gave me that person that I really thought was the one for me. In the short month it seems like he is being taken away. I know its not my fault that he may have another woman pregnant. This happened all before he met me and you know the whole truth.
In this short time frame I have never hurt so much in my life. I do not know why I am hurting so bad. I am not going to be selfish and wish that the child is not his. I just want to ask for strength and guidance. I know everything happens for a reason but I still cannot banish the hurt. It will be a month to two months before I get the answers I want.
I just do not know if I can handle it. I know I could easily just walk away and forget about it. In the short time he has been in my life I just do not know why I cannot walk away. I am so scared of being hurt again by the same person. I just want to run away from the situation. I know throughout life you thought me to never run from obstacles and to hold my head high. I just want to stop feeling so dead inside.
I want to be able to stop crying. I want to be able to stop responding to his calls and text messages. I have a lot that I want to be able to stop doing. I am just lost and I don’t know what to do. Please Lord give me strength, guidance, and hope that this situation will not destroy me emotionally.