Please help me. Remove these worries and bad thoughts. Please!!!!! I can’t do it by myself

G-D

Please help me. Remove these worries and bad thoughts. Please!!!!! I cant do it by myself. I feel so alone. Even in a room with hundreds i feel alone. These people who i let in my life have ruined it w bad talk of me. He and by he you know who is making up lies. But bc he is such a narcissist the real him will not be revealed. He truly is painting an awful picture of me. And i dont know how to relieve myself from this. Im very scared. I need you to carry me thru this. I hate my life right now. Anxiety and stress keep me up. Eventually if i dont get thru this my heart will shatter. I need you more than ever. Why arent you hearing my prayers? I cry during the day and. Night. Why arent you helping me. I feel like you have abandoned me.