I have struggled with self harm and suicidal thoughts/ tendencies for many years now. Tonight I hit rock bottom. I’m trying to stay strong but the enemy is coming at me with constant attacks that others would find little or insignificant. Tonight, for example, I had a mental breakdown in our devotional class and contemplated going through with it. (I’m past that part and better now). The whole class stopped and lifted me in prayer.
Now I’ve lost the sentimental necklace my dad gave me after I spent the whole week writing him a song based around the words written on the necklace and our relationship after he gave it to me. That small piece of jewelry always reminds me to be strong.
Like I said, it seems small compared to the struggles others have to go through, but it really hurts my heart that I can’t find it. I just could use some peace overall. My anxiety is through the roof these days and I’m constantly tormented by things from my past. I’m just trying to make it through the night. I can’t let my Daddy go.
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