My 48 year old marriage; he’s abusive, alcoholic and a Covert Naracissist. I would get a motel every few months just for peace. Last time, he knew he had gone way to far and when I left, HE filed for a Divorce.
In Texas it costs $6,000.00 for 60 days; so I hired an Attorney and thought “I might as well go through with it, even though I don’t believe in Divorce.) Two years later, he’s violated evert Legal Document, signed my name to our Joint Tax Return, etc. Long story short, I was so wearry (he’s also turned my own family against me because he changes to this “charming” person around them and made me look crazy.) To be honest, over the last 20 years of abuse I was thinking I was the crazy one.
Prayers Request: I was wearry and on my Attorney’s advice went to Mediation to end this ordeal. I suffer from PTSD from him (my precious Christian Counselor that I saw 3 times a week for 8 years and knew everything, just passed away during surgery, which was also devestating to me.) Mediation lasted almost 9 hours, I was exhausted, didn’t really understand the Documents, but felt forced to sign because everyone was tired (due to my husband.) My gut said “don’t sign” but felt pressured to and signed. I now found out that that Document cannot be amended, I have lost over $200,000.00 (I had to borrow loans and credit cards for all the expenses that my soon to be ex incurred on my behalf.) Now, after a 48 year marriage soon to be over, I’m 70 years old (and was looking forward to starting a new life,) I now find myself beating myself up, hopeless and realized how he still controls me. My Counselor said, “If you do leave (and he encouraged me to move out for a few months for my protection,) it will get worse, with his Narcissism.” Guess I couldn’t believe that could be possible. Also, my Counselor was a PhD, who has written 12 books (half of them on alcoholism.) Thank you for your prayers and I’m so sorry for the length, but felt the need to explain.
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