I am finally being called back to work. My unemployment was set to decrease so it couldn’t have come at a better time. I wasn’t happy at my job previously. My boss is a stickler. She picks on me it seems. Scrutinizes my work and seems to keep just my work at unusually high standards. She sets rules for me and no one else. I felt bullied. I am going back to work. At a different site. Different building. Doing similar work. Same pay, title. Also the same boss. I was unusually close with the staff I supervised and would often be more like a co worker than a supervisor with them. The worst of these staff has left. I just worry that I will grow to hate my job again. That I will become bullied.
I just pray in Jesus name that I can reinvent myself and be positive and just be refreshed and be a new worker with a new outlook and just be refreshed and positive and have no negativity invade my space. Please let this be. I simply cannot take the stress. I am depressed. My sister commit suicide in September and then the end of January my father in law died who I was extremely close to. This all happened within within 5 months. I just need happiness in my life. I have been crying for no reason and even just writing about it now I am starting to cry. I just don’t want to get critiqued and start crying at work. Or get stressed out and start crying. Prior to getting furloughed I was drinking nips in the bathroom to cope. I don’t want that again. Please just give me strength to have a positive new outlook. I am trying my best to be positive and will try to maintain a positive attitude. I am taking vitamins to help with depression and hopefully things will get better. PleAse. Just help me God.
Amen
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