I am already at the precipice of my desperation. I am anxious, worried, sad, all the adjectives I can use to describe just how low I am feeling right now and all these past days, weeks, months since my husband’s death. I am trying my very best to stay close to you, clinging if possible through daily prayers. I believe in the power of the Holy Rosary, I always tell myself. However, most times, my hope, trust and faith is tested time and time again…..I don’t know until how long I can be able to hold onto to what’s left of my reliance in God’s love and assistance. I have lots of obligations to meet, bills to pay and even the most important mission I have left which is to put my sons in school is now failing….with what’s happening in the world, I don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore. It’s like the world is coming to an end….at times, I feel like the only solution is to disappear for real in this world that has already gone totally wrecked by the pandemic of Covid-19. Please pray for me and my sons and my friend who is taking care of my sons while I work. Living now is just surviving…..until when? Is there still hope? Is there an end to this suffering? God, help us all.
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