Brad knows I have a crush on him. He likes to get my hopes up and then ghost me. Brad introduced me to meth. I’ve been clean for a month but now I want to go back to doing it because he made me feel so bad. I was just starting to forgive and get over him. I was finally getting my life together. Now I’m in upset and anxious because I need dope to have a fun personality at work. I’m shy and boring. I was going to attempt to go back clean. Now I feel I need dope because God didn’t administer justice. He never does for me. Ever. Brad has never had to pay for all the time he made me suffer. I don’t trust God to help me at work with making me more likeable because I have faith in God and time and time again, He doesn’t stick up for me, He lets people use me and doesn’t defend me. I stopped using dope for Him but since He obviously doesn’t care about me, I don’t want to go back to it but I have no choice because even though it says God doesn’t have favorites…He lets Brad get away with murder, so clearly He does.
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