It has been three years since my ex wife divorced me. This was the biggest disappointment of my life, and one of the most costly- not just financially. I now see how difficult she can be, and uncompromising. She gets upset over little things, and where I was once her confidant, I later became her target of anger. Her love for others outshined what I thought we had, and not even the children having their parents to be together made a difference. I later found out she quickly moved onto another man who was a friend of the family prior to the divorce being final. That made it so that we could never regain what we had. I now wallow in what I lost, but am healing, yet lonely and lost. I wonder what my future is, and my two kids are the only thing that keeps me grounded. I lost so much, and she seems somewhat unaffected by it. The hardest part is that she does not long for what we had as a family, so I feel fooled or mislead- I felt grateful to god for it, and it was not even worthy enough for her.
I would love to move on, but I have difficulty worrying how it would work with my kids, and whatever circumstances the other person brings. It seems too much for me to overcome at times, and so I fear I will be alone for a long, long time.
So sad, as I was a committed husband and father, but nothing was going to stop her from doing what she wanted. Someone out there must be longing for someone like me, but I spent so much time alone in my life, that I fear it will be a long time before I meet that person or anyone for that matter.Return to Marriage Prayer