God I believe you are the lord f lords but sadly I’m addict and it’s destroying my mind my life, I have so many hopes and dreams yet I don’t try to follow through on any of them. My husband and I have been married 30 years and today is first time I. Years he made me feel unloved un cared for stupid just odd stuff for him. So now I’m alone and I want to get high but I don’t cause I feel like crap when I do and it divides me from you. Please God help me help to get off this couch and live some how. I don’t work or go to school I’m lost m depressed and I don’t want to be here please fix me Jesus . I know only you can no one else can fix me.