illness after backsliding, Help Us Father

Good morning everyone. I hope and pray for the Lord to have mercy on me for becoming impatient with time and trying to do things my way. At the time I thought it was the only way. I ask that he spare my life and grant me health. Help me to help others and constantly strive to become a better person. I pray that he opens his ears to me. I have a lump in my neck (cancer, lymph node, aneurism) I’m not certain but I pray for my body to become whole as I was as a child. All things are possible to they who believe. And I believe!! Thank you for your time.