I see beauty and can help others struggling after many tribulations the Lord has brought me through

So many days I see beauty and can help others struggling after many tribulations the Lord has brought me through …. yet, I cannot seem to get past my husband passing away suddenly at the age of 49. I never thought I would be here. I can so easily encourage others and have seen God’s work many, many times but find myself what do I hope for now when the world doesn’t really offer much – I have had “everything” the world had to offer and lost so much and so much replaced …. maybe it is just because I am so incredibly lonely yet am not sure if another husband is the answer. I am struggling – believe God’s word but don’t know what to hope for these days and not even sure what to pray for. Have faith that the Lord will provide something because I am not even sure what to hope for – maybe it is to continue with the purpose and vision I was given to have this dance ministry – guess I just hope to not feel so lonely every night when it is quiet.