Lord, I pray to you in this early hour for the faith and strength I need to push forward through these trials I am facing presently, and I ask that when I do so that I do your will and not my own. Help me to be present and mindful in each moment and decision that I make through the day, and help guide me to the right path rather than my own destructive course.
Lord, forgive me for being disloyal to you and harming my precious temple, doing so full of pride. I cannot overcome this alone. My self destruction has taken so many years of my life and I have been triumphant in this fight for three years.
I then became weak and disregarded your will and your many warnings, signaling me to not listen to the evil one and choose your will over mine. I threw away almost 4 years of genuine contentment and peace, all for an impulsive path I created for myself, constructed by my will.
It has been a long path of pain and emptiness since and I need to let go of my selfish ways and come back to reality , but most of all Lord, come back to you.