I need God badly and right now

by Renee (Ohio)

I am a 14 year old girl who is a severe hypochondriac and I am extremely fearful of a possible upcoming illness for me. I am desperate for possible prevention and peace from my fear. But I also have an additional request for salvation. I have been doubting Gods existence. I am very depressed and can hardly feel any emotions but sadness and envy. I have become desensitized to death and hardly feel anything for anyone. I need God badly and right now especially. I feel like I am far too gone and I just need him to help me.