I love you Mother Mary. I love you so much. i know you have decided to leave me, to turn your back on me, but it’s ok, because i love you so much.
I hope you will love me back someday, cause then i know all my suffering and loneliness will end. But above all this i do still love you, i will pray for you every night just because i love you.
Someone said it is ok to rest but it is not ok to give up. I am sorry my Mother, i can’t go on anymore, i need to give up this time, i can’t continue this struggle anymore, it killed my soul, and now i am just waiting for my physical death, i wish you could give that to me.
I wish you could give me the eternal peace already, i need it. Tell Wajdi i love him, let him know i am nothing without him, and now that i might end up without him soon, and you are not with me anymore, i have no reason to exist.
Whoever will read this, please pray for me, because Mother Mary refused me and just let me go.