I have faced familiar and health problems for so long

I have faced familiar and health problems for so long, that my faith is gone. If there is Divine Justice why I can’t feel it?

God, please, help me to put my past behind and forget what J.M. did to me during so many years. Also, I ask you to forgive me if I wasn’t able to protect myself from all these sorrows. Now I am here on my knees, asking you to send your angels to rescue me. Also protect my husband and my kids. Amem!