I feel like I’m a terrible person

by Anthony (Afghanistan)

I’m often overcome with remorse for the dumb decisions that I make. I am a Soldier and was married to a desperate woman. She cheated on me, multiple times, while I was deployed to Iraq. I contracted herpes from my spouse. Since then, I have not been honest about it and have yet to admit to anyone that I have it at all. I have infected at least one woman, most likely 2, possibly 5 in all. I’m ashamed to say anything but then again, I have to live with the fact that I did this to them. I do try to be more careful and I know that in the future I have to tell the woman I’m with that I have this disease. I just hope that I can be forgiven for my past indiscretions.

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