I feel hopelessly alone

by Brett (Ponte Vedra Beach, FL)

I am trying to believe and have faith and be strong …

I’ve been praying for a miracle … fasting … humbling myself by reaching out in prayer to the Lord, Jesus, the Holy Spirit, the saints … as well as asking others for their prayers, which I have never had the courage to do …

I’ve been relentless for 2 months … but any signs I think I see, have alternative explanations to the rational mind …

And, after two months, things seem to be worse, not better … and I fear part of the lack of improvement is my fault for not being strong and faithful …

I feel so alone …

I know that God never gives you what you can’t handle and that he is with you carrying you when you can’t take it … but I don’t see or feel that …

I don’t want to admit to losing hope …

Please pray for me … I cannot survive this alone …